Another little graphic I made a while back, originally posted on my Tumblr. This one’s a visual representation of what it feels like to be a borderline.
over the course of six pictures, the phrases,
- “don’t overshare,”
- “but don’t clam up or shut down,”
- “but don’t force it,”
- “but don’t self-isolate,”
- “but don’t take anything for granted,” and
- “BUT DON’T CLING”
overlap in ways that are hard to look at and hard to process, alienating and disorienting — blurring and overlapping in harsh, caustic, clashing colors and a cartoonish font.
in the seventh picture, on top of all of that, in acidic, garish, neon type, looking almost like a series of intrusive, eye-gouging, pop-up advertisements, come the phrases,
- “don’t be fake. weird. creepy. selfish. abusive. draining. manipulative. overwhelming,”
- “i hate me,”
- “why is this so hard?”
- “other people know how to do this,”
- “fuck you,”
- “fuck me,”
- “fuck everything,”
- “you’re not worth this,”
- “i’m not worth this,” and
- “what is wrong with me?”
in the eighth picture, the image goes completely black.
in the ninth, it’s still black, still mostly empty, but in plain white text in a plain white font, it says, “i was just thinking about something. (pause) i don’t remember what it was.”]
“Let me thank the parts of me that I don’t understand or are out of my rational control, like my creativity, and my courage.
“And let me remember that my courage is a wild dog — it won’t just come when I call it. I have to chase it down and hold on as tight as I can.” – Ze Frank, An Invocation for Beginnings.