Category Archives: side notes.

it’s been a long time.

non-binary: a moody book of complicated feelings. written and illustrated by Anthony DellaRosa.

[a book cover. soft yellow text on a shimmering blue background. it says, “non-binary: a moody book of complicated feelings. written and illustrated by Anthony DellaRosa.”]

But I wrote a fucking book. It’s on Amazon right now.

It’s a children’s picture book about growing up queer as hell in a world that wants to crush you to bits.

If you identify as queer or low-income, you can DM me on Twitter or Tumblr, or use the contact form on this site, for a free copy, no questions asked, no need to prove yourself.

Or if you have a blog or a YouTube channel or whatever, you can also DM me to get a review copy.

It also has a GoodReads page.

Tell your friends?

love.jpg(s).

i can't even begin to tell you how much i love you.

[purple text on a pale lavender background. the font simulates handwriting scribbled in crayon, a quiet piece of simulated intimacy. it says, “i can’t even begin to tell you how much i love you.”]

all my enby friends.

[“all my enby friends.”]

and all the other enbies i'm never going to get to meet.

[“and all the other enbies i’m never going to get to meet.”]

i love you. so much. and i want you to be okay.

[“i love you. so much. and i want you to be okay.”]

i need you to be okay.

[“i need you to be okay.”]

there is so much that i'm never going to be able to say.

[“there is so much that i’m never going to be able to say.”]

so many feelings that i am never going to be able to push out my mouth.

[“so many feelings that i am never going to be able to push out my mouth.”]

i don't know how to. i don't have the words.

[“i don’t know how to. i don’t have the words.”]

but i love you. and i'm with you.

[“but i love you. and i’m with you.”]

and we have a right to be alive in this world.

[“and we have a right to be alive in this world.”]

A tiny, insufficient thing I made at 6am, thinking about pride month and politics.

brain.jpg(s)

Another little graphic I made a while back, originally posted on my Tumblr. This one’s a visual representation of what it feels like to be a borderline.

[image description:

over the course of six pictures, the phrases,

  • “don’t overshare,”
  • “but don’t clam up or shut down,”
  • “but don’t force it,”
  • “but don’t self-isolate,”
  • “but don’t take anything for granted,” and
  • “BUT DON’T CLING”

overlap in ways that are hard to look at and hard to process, alienating and disorienting — blurring and overlapping in harsh, caustic, clashing colors and a cartoonish font.

in the seventh picture, on top of all of that, in acidic, garish, neon type, looking almost like a series of intrusive, eye-gouging, pop-up advertisements, come the phrases,

  • “don’t be fake. weird. creepy. selfish. abusive. draining. manipulative. overwhelming,”
  • “i hate me,”
  • “why is this so hard?”
  • “other people know how to do this,”
  • “fuck you,”
  • “fuck me,”
  • “fuck everything,”
  • “you’re not worth this,”
  • “i’m not worth this,” and
  • “what is wrong with me?”

in the eighth picture, the image goes completely black.

in the ninth, it’s still black, still mostly empty, but in plain white text in a plain white font, it says, “i was just thinking about something. (pause) i don’t remember what it was.”]

i’m fucking autistic, babes.

i'm fucking autistic, babes

[a colorful, vaguely psychedelic graphic — glowing yellow text on a background of teal, undulating shapes. it says, “I’m fucking autistic, babes.”]

I make little graphics like this, sometimes, when I feel like I have something in me that I just can’t get out some other way. I made this one a little while back. it’s not exactly “core content,” but it feels like a neat way to sort of christen the opening of the site.