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Another little graphic I made a while back, originally posted on my Tumblr. This one’s a visual representation of what it feels like to be a borderline.

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over the course of six pictures, the phrases,

  • “don’t overshare,”
  • “but don’t clam up or shut down,”
  • “but don’t force it,”
  • “but don’t self-isolate,”
  • “but don’t take anything for granted,” and
  • “BUT DON’T CLING”

overlap in ways that are hard to look at and hard to process, alienating and disorienting — blurring and overlapping in harsh, caustic, clashing colors and a cartoonish font.

in the seventh picture, on top of all of that, in acidic, garish, neon type, looking almost like a series of intrusive, eye-gouging, pop-up advertisements, come the phrases,

  • “don’t be fake. weird. creepy. selfish. abusive. draining. manipulative. overwhelming,”
  • “i hate me,”
  • “why is this so hard?”
  • “other people know how to do this,”
  • “fuck you,”
  • “fuck me,”
  • “fuck everything,”
  • “you’re not worth this,”
  • “i’m not worth this,” and
  • “what is wrong with me?”

in the eighth picture, the image goes completely black.

in the ninth, it’s still black, still mostly empty, but in plain white text in a plain white font, it says, “i was just thinking about something. (pause) i don’t remember what it was.”]

i’m fucking autistic, babes.

i'm fucking autistic, babes

[a colorful, vaguely psychedelic graphic — glowing yellow text on a background of teal, undulating shapes. it says, “I’m fucking autistic, babes.”]

I make little graphics like this, sometimes, when I feel like I have something in me that I just can’t get out some other way. I made this one a little while back. it’s not exactly “core content,” but it feels like a neat way to sort of christen the opening of the site.

a beginning, hopefully.

a beginning, hopefully: introductions and insecurities.

[a banner loosely made up to look and feel like a title card from an old ’90s anime. warm blues, pinks, and yellows. the number “00” is in the upper right-hand corner. the text says, “a beginning, hopefully: introductions and insecurities.”]

“Let me find and use metaphors to help me understand the world around me, and give me the strength to get rid of them when it’s apparent they no longer work.

“Let me thank the parts of me that I don’t understand or are out of my rational control, like my creativity, and my courage.

“And let me remember that my courage is a wild dog — it won’t just come when I call it. I have to chase it down and hold on as tight as I can.” – Ze Frank, An Invocation for Beginnings.

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